Oh hai chris just happens to be in the room.

haha lmao i hope he has a happy brocktober. 8D I mean, I guess it's not all bad. Haha.

And being as I'm making no sense whatsoever, I'm just gonna ramble on about touhouz and other things because I'm lame like that.

I think I'm actually getting better at keeping my mouth shut. Now, if only I could just be quiet all the time. <3 You know what they say, cute 'till they open their mouth, right? <3

srsly though lol chris should have a happy happy happy brocktober. hahaha.

;_;

oh my dear fucking god life is so short. ;__;

And it makes me sad. I can't cry, though. Which is a bit ironic...I cry so goddamned easily at everything else, but when someone I know dies, I can't even cry? God damn, I just talked to her like...a few days before that.

I feel like maybe somehow something I did caused something which caused about 50 kazillion other things that caused this to happen. I mean, I know it's not my fault, but what if I'd gone about life differently? Would that've taken me on a different route of life where things like that happened differently?

And she was so sweet, too. She was just so...huggable. And so nice. Even though I didn't get along particularly well with Heidi. ;_; And it doesn't feel real.

It feels like she's still here. Like, there's no way she could've died. It just doesn't feel real.

But I've never experienced loss of anyone close to me...I don't know what to do. My mind's at a standstill, and everything's just all swirly around me...it feels bizarre, it doesn't feel right, it doesn't feel possible, it. does. not. feel. possible.

Aaahhhhaaaa. Brains.

I am tired of college application essays for the following 10 bazillion reasons.

1. lol, no, i do NOT have goals.

2. these topics are too damn vague and it's impossible to be specific at all without a better topic.

3. wtf is a mission statement.

Repeated about 10 billion times over and over.

But in any case, I've started playing Touhouz and I really like it because it's awesome but IN won't work at full speed on my compootar no matter what ;___;

oh happy brocktober doodz.

HAPPY BROCKTOBER DOODZ.

YES YES IT'S TOTALLY THE BEST (WORST) SOMETHING OR OTHER MONTH OF THE YEAR! IT'S...BROCKTOBER!

(and yes I know this is a day late, but too bad.)

Now...all your romantic exploits will fail! And for all horoscopes, you will have an important influence in the wisdom of younger boys and their traveling eyecandies! Of course, they're not dating them (lol).

So, try to flirt! Be desperate! Get stabbed by your Croagunk! Don't mention Professor Ivy! Have a happy Brocktober!