Oh hai chris just happens to be in the room.

haha lmao i hope he has a happy brocktober. 8D I mean, I guess it's not all bad. Haha.

And being as I'm making no sense whatsoever, I'm just gonna ramble on about touhouz and other things because I'm lame like that.

I think I'm actually getting better at keeping my mouth shut. Now, if only I could just be quiet all the time. <3 You know what they say, cute 'till they open their mouth, right? <3

srsly though lol chris should have a happy happy happy brocktober. hahaha.

;_;

oh my dear fucking god life is so short. ;__;

And it makes me sad. I can't cry, though. Which is a bit ironic...I cry so goddamned easily at everything else, but when someone I know dies, I can't even cry? God damn, I just talked to her like...a few days before that.

I feel like maybe somehow something I did caused something which caused about 50 kazillion other things that caused this to happen. I mean, I know it's not my fault, but what if I'd gone about life differently? Would that've taken me on a different route of life where things like that happened differently?

And she was so sweet, too. She was just so...huggable. And so nice. Even though I didn't get along particularly well with Heidi. ;_; And it doesn't feel real.

It feels like she's still here. Like, there's no way she could've died. It just doesn't feel real.

But I've never experienced loss of anyone close to me...I don't know what to do. My mind's at a standstill, and everything's just all swirly around me...it feels bizarre, it doesn't feel right, it doesn't feel possible, it. does. not. feel. possible.

Aaahhhhaaaa. Brains.

I am tired of college application essays for the following 10 bazillion reasons.

1. lol, no, i do NOT have goals.

2. these topics are too damn vague and it's impossible to be specific at all without a better topic.

3. wtf is a mission statement.

Repeated about 10 billion times over and over.

But in any case, I've started playing Touhouz and I really like it because it's awesome but IN won't work at full speed on my compootar no matter what ;___;

oh happy brocktober doodz.

HAPPY BROCKTOBER DOODZ.

YES YES IT'S TOTALLY THE BEST (WORST) SOMETHING OR OTHER MONTH OF THE YEAR! IT'S...BROCKTOBER!

(and yes I know this is a day late, but too bad.)

Now...all your romantic exploits will fail! And for all horoscopes, you will have an important influence in the wisdom of younger boys and their traveling eyecandies! Of course, they're not dating them (lol).

So, try to flirt! Be desperate! Get stabbed by your Croagunk! Don't mention Professor Ivy! Have a happy Brocktober!

SATOMURA IS MOE DOODZ.

that being said, there's finally a text-patch for C;H.

...now I have to actually get C;H (why in god's name didn't I do this earlier? omg i r stoopid.)

So I was bored and Playing ONE since i didn't feel like sleeping last night and I decided to try and do Satomura's route. But srsly, everyone in this game is a moeblob. Even Nanase, who's a moe-tsundere blob. Too bad the art's pretty QUALITY, or else this game'd probably have a fanbase like that of TYPE-MOON.

curry is shit, ciel. Haha. :3

In any case, my brain hurts. And it was a very boring weekend. All I did was write/revise my college application essays, I didn't even finish them. And other than that, I did nothing productive on the interwebs. Oh well.

But Satomura is moe because she is. ;_; oh so ronery. And everyone can tell. Everyone can tell that Satomura's moe.

BECAUSE SHE IS K.

THIS IS MAI RANDUM BLOOOG OMG.

hai doodz lol wut?

This has nothing to do with anything and the fact that this has nothing to do with anything has nothing to do with anything. And it's silly. And some of it's 'bout pogeymans and stuff. And about my 50 kajillion other fandoms that I follow for about a week each. Like Nabari no Ou, I srsly DID like that for about a week. After that, I stopped giving a crap.

HAHAHA AND IRL STUFF TOO BUT DRAMA IS BORING SO I'LL TRY NOT TO BOTHER ANYONE WHO READS THIS TOO MUCH WITH STUFF LIKE THAT 'CAUSE I DO NOT CAAARE OMG.

In any case, I think that this is incredibly uninsightful. Seriously. You'll learn almost nothing about me from reading this. Srsly. Nothing. None. That's all. Nothing that random people don't already know. (no, not interweb people, irl people, just because I can because I'm totally awesome like that).

Very little to none of this'll have anything to do with music or anything other than fandom shit/occasional irl stuff/me being 'creative' (which is an outdated term since creativity is like almost dead. Some things/people are creative, but I see an exponential downslide, srsly. It must be in a coma) and about half of it will be me ENTIRELY RANTING LOL EVEN THOUGH NO ONE WILL READ THIS.

....speaking of which, I'd start laughing if everyone like randomly read this, but it's not like people are going to, and I'm just killing time before I go home, do homework, and watch pogeymans. AND SEE THE EPISODE THAT IS PROBABLY TERRIBLE (neither of them look that good just by the premise, although Brock is like almost dead anyways lolol).

And tomorrow and saturday and sunday is either hair-dying day or like....super-ultimate hiding-hair-from mommy hat day. And also college application day. ;___; What if I don't get into like anywhere? But I should. Dunno if I'll get financial aid, though. >___>;;

BUT MOMMY CANNOT COMPLAIN, BECAUSE I'LL HAVE DONE THEM AND THEN SHE CAN'T YELL ABOUT THAT ANYMORE. And then her brain will break upon seeing my hair if I do actually decide to dye it (will I? won't I? Only time will tell, doodz!)

Also my skewlz counselor thinks that like my hairz is better short. But idk if she'll like it purple. :3 oh well, it's not her hair, amirite?

OKAY SORRY GAIZ LOL.

you are young and you must be livin'~

Take a shower, shine your--oh wait this is totally not time for me to be singing songs that I don't personally really care for, oops. Although, I'm sure that you probably don't care. Then again, who even reads this? Like, no one? Maybe a stalker does.

Even so, I bet a stalker'd get bored after a while, I'm a relatively boring person, aren't I? And what would you want to see me do, anyways? See me fill out college applications? See me do my homework? See me watch some TV or animu? See me play sum touhouz? See me sleep? I never understood why stalkers waste their time on crap like that when they could totally be doing something about fifty bajillion times more productive than just sitting and watching some person.

Or at least they could sit and watch TV instead, it's much less creepy. But, then again, there's never anything good on anyways. Maybe that's why stalkers exist in the first place. o_o

On a side note, one of the few yao-wee (zomg its BL biznatch!111 oh nuu, its slash naoz!!) pairings that I still care about (not to say I really dislike teh yao-wee much, but I'm pretty far past my stupid yaoi fangirl phase) is Gary/Ash. Because it's awesome and stuff.

And because pogeymans will never end, not even when I'm an old grandma, there'll be a never-ending treasure trove of "zomg thar b hint!! they will b ghey luvurz hurrhurr".

Or maybe it's just a stubborn sticking to an awesome tradition. Shit, maybe I'm becoming conservative, don't wanna be the next Paul, hurrhurr. D; Because that would be so not cool because he's not cool and should feel not cool. Then again, most people seem like they've been boiling lately-but I have a cold, and I don't feel that way. So that must be why he feels not cool, amirite?

In any case, I hope the Patchy episode gets teh release today that way I can start looking forward to the ten bazillion ways they'll bastardize Akagi in teh animu next week.

8DDD.........;___;